The Beginning

So, my very first post :) Slightly depressing that, at the moment, I have no followers, so this post is to nobody! However, I guess I have to start somewhere!

So here is the situation. I'm on my Easter Holidays. I have given up chocolate for Lent, but that has made a fat (ha) lot of difference! I need, NEED to make some drastic changes. I've been trying so hard for the best part of a year and I managed to get down to about 126, but then I threw it all away over the Christmas Holidays. Summer is coming, and that means bikinis and shorts and tiny dresses. I can't be fat. I can't. I used to be so thin, and I just let myself go! People are beginning to see that I'm not as thin as I was before. When I'm thin, it will all make sense. If I fail anywhere else in life, at least I'll be thin. At least I won't feel like screaming when I try on my clothes.

Talking of clothes, they are one of my passions. I shop waaay too much, but only ever wear about 1/5 of my wardrobe because I feel to fat in my nicest clothes. I have loads that are a few sizes too small, so I aim to fit into them. I'm about a UK size 8/10 but I want to be 6/8. Sizes aren't really the way I'm going to measure this though.

My huge goal is a flat stomach for my bikini. I can't wear one unless I have a flat stomach! I don't have long.

At the moment I'm going to the gym every day, but soon I won't have the opportunity. I need to control the diet part better now. It's my Dad's birthday tomorrow, so we'll have a party with awful, unhealthy food. I'll barely eat breakfast or lunch, I'll just drink smoothie. Then I'll be able to eat at the party. I'll skip dinner too. I'll burn at least 400 cals at the gym. I'll drink water. Sound like a plan? Good :)

Love from your ballerina dreamer

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